Jan. 5th, 2010 07:47 pm
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Apparently I'm supposed to be curled up in a corner, crying, because the fan_wank people think I'm stupid/too emotional/other stuff I don't remember. Also, I'm supposed to be ashamed of what I posted Sunday.

But my emotions don't embarrass me. I don't know why they should. And expressing them doesn't embarrass me, and neither does other people holding them up to ridicule.

Of course, I am going to have to poison all their sugar. But that's easy enough.

Date: 2010-01-06 12:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It's the one wanker who lives her life, it would seem, to pick fights with people. You can write. That's the only reason they pick on you.
Simple as that.

Date: 2010-01-06 01:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I doubt they know if I can write or not, it's just that I put my emotions out on the table, without embarrassment. I can't imagine any of them doing that.

I found this, in Ann Marlowe's book about her days of using heroin. "And when you are alienated enough from your feelings to be able to identify with the exterior viewpoint, you decide you're cool."

Only I don't want to be cool, I want my feelings. Good and bad, they're much better than being cool.

Date: 2010-01-06 01:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Paraphrasing the great jazz musician Branford Marselis to a jazz student, "Oh, you're being cool! I know cool dudes. They're the ones with only one emotion. I like to have a lot of emotions ..."
Edited Date: 2010-01-06 02:11 am (UTC)


Date: 2010-01-06 01:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
you KNOW that I got the reference!

Date: 2010-01-06 02:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I saw this post in my sporadic f'list reading, and so of course I had to be nosy and go back and see what all the hubbub was about.

All I want to say is that I am a huge, HUGE fan of that NYR story. I have reread it countless times, and I cite it to people often when discussions of how a story without any graphic descriptions of sex can still make me faint with its hotness. So, while I completely sympathize with your right to take it down, I do hope that you might choose to repost it here at some point.

Thanks for all of the stories that you do share!


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