Huh.

[merricatk]

Apparently I'm supposed to be curled up in a corner, crying, because the fan_wank people think I'm stupid/too emotional/other stuff I don't remember. Also, I'm supposed to be ashamed of what I posted Sunday.

But my emotions don't embarrass me. I don't know why they should. And expressing them doesn't embarrass me, and neither does other people holding them up to ridicule.

Of course, I am going to have to poison all their sugar. But that's easy enough.

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[merricatk.livejournal.com]

I doubt they know if I can write or not, it's just that I put my emotions out on the table, without embarrassment. I can't imagine any of them doing that.

I found this, in Ann Marlowe's book about her days of using heroin. "And when you are alienated enough from your feelings to be able to identify with the exterior viewpoint, you decide you're cool."

Only I don't want to be cool, I want my feelings. Good and bad, they're much better than being cool.

[melodyclark.livejournal.com]

Paraphrasing the great jazz musician Branford Marselis to a jazz student, "Oh, you're being cool! I know cool dudes. They're the ones with only one emotion. I like to have a lot of emotions ..."